Anxiety.. the silent hater

Anxiety.. the silent hater
The red lips brooches were gifted to me and they’re from the Erstwilder Rocky horror collection.

Anxiety…

 

Such an overwhelming feeling of emotions all mixed in one. I personally understand what it’s like to suffer from it. I have it.

 

Wow, a breath of fresh air- I said it. I too, like the rest of the world was afraid to admit it. Anxiety for me has pushed me in a black hole at times and this week I felt that way.

It was and is a bad week. Such a black hole was created by all my emotions and none of them was my intention. Anxiety can make you feel like you’re the most shittiest person in the world & that whatever you’re doing at that time ( like making a blog and doing my instagram ) is not doing well & that you have to strive for perfection! & then the comparison to others start.

You know, when I’m not crippled with my own chains, I believe i am doing well and for the first time ever, when those chains aren’t holding me down I am screaming to the world “ HERE I AM!!!!”

 

First time ever. I’m 33 and for the first time I’m screaming the world and putting myself out there.  … then the anxiety and negative vibes kick in.

 

 

– is it worth it ?

– am I doing it wrong ?

– should I continue doing it ?

– no one likes it, why bother ?

– what’s the point ?

– you can’t do it. Quit now

– 3 Years of blogging and you’re nowhere !

– why is this taking so long ?

 

 

As you can see, these pointers aren’t me and in fact I’d like to admit I am a confident person and any self doubt is my anxiety. It is coming from a bad place . This all flared up after I lost my dad. My protector, my guidance.

Everyone has their own story and path but this is mine.

 

Take care, ❤️

 

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The red lips brooches were gifted to me and they’re from the Erstwilder Rocky horror collection.