Such an overwhelming feeling of emotions all mixed in one. I personally understand what it’s like to suffer from it. I have it.
Wow, a breath of fresh air- I said it. I too, like the rest of the world was afraid to admit it. Anxiety for me has pushed me in a black hole at times and this week I felt that way.
It was and is a bad week. Such a black hole was created by all my emotions and none of them was my intention. Anxiety can make you feel like you’re the most shittiest person in the world & that whatever you’re doing at that time ( like making a blog and doing my instagram ) is not doing well & that you have to strive for perfection! & then the comparison to others start.
You know, when I’m not crippled with my own chains, I believe i am doing well and for the first time ever, when those chains aren’t holding me down I am screaming to the world “ HERE I AM!!!!”
First time ever. I’m 33 and for the first time I’m screaming the world and putting myself out there. … then the anxiety and negative vibes kick in.
– is it worth it ?
– am I doing it wrong ?
– should I continue doing it ?
– no one likes it, why bother ?
– what’s the point ?
– you can’t do it. Quit now
– 3 Years of blogging and you’re nowhere !
– why is this taking so long ?
As you can see, these pointers aren’t me and in fact I’d like to admit I am a confident person and any self doubt is my anxiety. It is coming from a bad place . This all flared up after I lost my dad. My protector, my guidance.
Everyone has their own story and path but this is mine.
Take care, ❤️