Anxiety.. the silent hater

The red lips brooches were gifted to me and they’re from the Erstwilder Rocky horror collection.

Anxiety…

 

Such an overwhelming feeling of emotions all mixed in one. I personally understand what it’s like to suffer from it. I have it.

 

Wow, a breath of fresh air- I said it. I too, like the rest of the world was afraid to admit it. Anxiety for me has pushed me in a black hole at times and this week I felt that way.

It was and is a bad week. Such a black hole was created by all my emotions and none of them was my intention. Anxiety can make you feel like you’re the most shittiest person in the world & that whatever you’re doing at that time ( like making a blog and doing my instagram ) is not doing well & that you have to strive for perfection! & then the comparison to others start.

You know, when I’m not crippled with my own chains, I believe i am doing well and for the first time ever, when those chains aren’t holding me down I am screaming to the world “ HERE I AM!!!!”

 

First time ever. I’m 33 and for the first time I’m screaming the world and putting myself out there.  … then the anxiety and negative vibes kick in.

 

 

– is it worth it ?

– am I doing it wrong ?

– should I continue doing it ?

– no one likes it, why bother ?

– what’s the point ?

– you can’t do it. Quit now

– 3 Years of blogging and you’re nowhere !

– why is this taking so long ?

 

 

As you can see, these pointers aren’t me and in fact I’d like to admit I am a confident person and any self doubt is my anxiety. It is coming from a bad place . This all flared up after I lost my dad. My protector, my guidance.

Everyone has their own story and path but this is mine.

 

Take care, ❤️

 

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The red lips brooches were gifted to me and they’re from the Erstwilder Rocky horror collection.